Greetings family and friends, I apologize for not e-mailing sooner. Alot of changes to my plans, I have decided not to go to Turkey, though I tried, it was not to be... I am very greatfull to be in Bali. I just finished experiencing the Bali New year which is an amazing event. The whole country really gets into it, decorating the streets with beautifull bamboo and flower arangements. in the evening, huge efigies of horrible demons are peraded to the town center, acompanied by full marching Gamalon archistra's. The energy is so intense, thousands of people, calling the demons out from the shadows to be set free and healed. The next day is a day of silence, the entire island is silent, no electricity, flights, driving of cars... nothing, everyone must stay at home.
I took full advantage of this wonderfull oprotunity and got together with two dear friends to have a brothers gathering. We took sacred medicine and stayed up all night singing mantra's and flow sparing/dance. Several wonderfull things opened up for me. First and most important, I found my true vocal Mantra. My dear friend Agus, a sumatran Yoda whom has been studying martial/spiritual arts since a little boy opened the circle with a beautifull mantra song that called in the biggest spirit of all, the King of Kings, the core of all, from where we all have come from. The energy was so intense, I became frightened when my shadow self apeared in the mirror before me, that part of myself that can hurt, rape, and do any number of horrible things was looking back at me. With my mantra, I was able to see this dark part of myself as a merely a simptom of something deeper and more profound, an emotional part of myself that is in need of love. with the help of the mantra, I was able to poor healing love into every dark corner of my being, and the dark spirits whom had become interested in what we were doing, healing them and myslelf. I have allways used dance as my main mantra, but discovering a vocal mantra has opened up a new level of love and understanding. A mantra is more a feeling expressed in a word that caries all the love one has for god. By saying the mantra over and over, ones love grows, and as a result god is better able to work its healing. A mantra can be a lighthouse, a beekon of light that can guide us through stormy sea's. I truly important tool, and incredibly primordial and ancient. Since I discovered my verbal mantra, I have realised that we see mantra's used in nature all the time. Roosters and song birds, cayote, and wolf to name a few, sing their devotional mantra of love to source.
We discovered similarities between Arabic mantra, native american mantra and javanese mantra and the ancient mantra of the jewish people. Seeing the similarities in the name of source made me realize that this information must be getting passed to people straight from source and not through the dogma of realigion.
I also experienced something that I had never experienced at such a deep level; my friend Johari and myself went out into the front yard and in complete darkness(no moon dew to clouds) we flow spared with staffs and open hands. Unable to see each other on the light spectrum we closed our eyes and were able to feel each on an energy spectrum, with eyes closed we battled full speed, slashing and jabbing hard heavy staffs at each other in perfect flow. It was incredible, we new what the other was going to do before it happened, I could tell from the living energy that swirled in detailed paterns around us. Bali is full of strong spirits, the people here reconize and honor them with altars and offerings all over the place. Many spirits became interested in our dance, and came into the circle to flow in and out of our movements, an extrodinary experience indeed. I feel so humbly blessed to have been gifted this awareness opening experience.
My plans right now are to stay in Bali for a 1-2 more weeks, untill manufacturing of goods is finished. I miss my family and friends deeply and am startign to feel a strong need to go home. I love you with all my being.
Forest